Well anniversary went off ok. We gave cards to each other I told her in it I hope in the future when this date comes up she can look back and remember some happy memories. She sent me a text about the things we had see below for total text
You are the love of my life I loved when you looked at me I loved when you'd kiss my neck I loved when you'd pick me up I loved when you whispered in my ear I loved your soft lips I love that you gave me 2 babies I loved your thoughtfulness I loved our time together I loved your hard work and dedication I love you as a father I love you as a friend You've made me a stronger person You've made me a smarter person
So I know I shouldn't take it as any sign of anything but it was nice to hear. She also said she would like to spend sometime together. And I agreed that it would be fun. I have no real hope that it means anything. But I am going to go out with her and spend time with the person who was my best friend. My ideas for hanging out are just to go have fun no sex or talk about our relationship just catch up with her and talk no expectations on my part. Also I have tried hard not to talk about the past present or future with her in regards to our relationship. I am really making a stride in that. It may seem strange but talking with her and texting has started to make me see myself in a better light and not stress so much about the situation. I think because I am starting to realize life goes on. And she can still be my friend even tho we are no longer together.
