LiM: One Year into Piecing

[LiM]

Thanks Doodler,

I don't necessarily disagree with that. This will be the first time in the past year that we've had any prolonged alone time together. There has been a single night here or there but we've not been able to really get away together and just enjoy ourselves. I want this trip to be a time for us to really reconnect, for her to be out of her normal daily grind and to have nothing to focus on but me. She will have the opportunity to see and experience all the changes I've made without being interrupted by kids, working out, Facebook, etc. My hope was that she would really SEE me for what I am: someone that loves her, forgives her and wants to build something great with her.

What I do know though is that she won't be able to see any of that if she's still basically having a one sided EA. We know our spouses are blind to us when they are in a fog. But I also know that when I get alone time with my W, we have a wonderful time. She does relax and allow herself to vulnerable and intimate. When we have these times together, the feeling that OM is between us goes away. I do feel us reconnecting. Its afterwards that I feel her pulling away again and a wall coming back up between us. I've thought for a while that this trip is going to be very telling about the future of our R one way or the other. It will either pull us closer together or I could possibly see that it just isn't going to work.