My fear of staying in a lack luster non trusting relationship got the best of me. I went away by myself and reflected on the 20 year marriage.
I came home and filed.
I think you're being hasty, it's only been 3 months since BD. I know how it is, a lot of times we just want to rip the bandaid off and get it over with. But you're emotions are still very raw and you are still trying to find your way through this. So is she. I would suggest easing off of that and continue getting counseling and allow her to continue her counseling. Are you still talking to a DB coach? Continue that. Explore your feelings with the counselors, they'll help you find your path.
