25yearsmlc 10 yrs later I File D (part 4)

[25yearsmlc]

Wow, sorry to hear about your D 25. That's ridiculous...in regards to both the political rally and trying to get help from H to pay for college. Hope both of these things work out in the end for you.

The fb posts with him and the "love of his life" are so offensive to me that I had to step back and say "wait, it might NOT be cruel so much as crazy AND cruel..."

Just out of curiosity, is there a reason why you are seeing his posts? Are you searching for them or have you just not "un-followed" him at this point and they still pop up in your feed? I'm dealing with the same, so eventually I had to block her and the OM. There is no reason why I need to see those things and I don't think you do either.

There are a lot of things to vent about, sorry... Are there any positives?

Uh, I blocked h long ago, and never once looked at h's posts nor did I stalk OW (or know about OW till recently).

Unless it helps legally, I'm not interested in knowing of h & OW's life. For the most part I can say that the people who told me about OW and h's posts, had my interests at heart.

In hindsight however, I think If I had known of OW earlier, I would have reacted differently, legally. And Moved emotionally faster too, I suppose.

Here on this thread, I was merely venting.

I lost my mom 18 months ago, last child went off to college, I moved again (for h's job in CA )

then 7 months ago I was thrown a curve ball health care problem, H went to Alaska & cut me off financially, which I did NOT expect and which I was poorly prepared for as I was just released from the ICU of a neuro ward from which 40% of the patients never leave,

I filed for divorce, moved cross country with the help of my family, h fights every cent of the D and even money he's suggested he'd pay, he has not. He replaced our whole family quite publicly and frankly, it's been a damn rough year. And this is not my first round of DBing but it will be my last.

But yes, Of course there are positives. (But For half an hour I just wanted to whine. Besides, it can help organize oneself).

Anyhow, I am a free woman with electricity and food and shelter, I am smart, I make myself and loved ones laugh b/c I'm damn funny, I am surrounded by people who love me. I am making a full medical recovery. I will find meaningful work, i will travel again, my children are kind, smart people who are also hilarious. And healthy. We are close. Someday I will live near them again.

I like living alone (no offense to my dog, who lives with me and really should count) I love my neighborhood as I am basically an urban hipster now. In time if I want, I know I will have romantic love in my life again.

This ordeal I am in, is also something I will learn to embrace b/c what choice is there?


The truth however is that I'm in a $h1tstorm at the moment. No "gold plating the grit", as Brene Brown says.

I'm resolute b/c I was put in an impossible situation and did what I must.

I'm at peace b/c I know I am loved and not alone.

I have faith that I'll find my rudder & direction, b/c I'm f---ing resilient.