D9 took me out to dinner Friday night for my bday. exH had stopped and got a small gift certificate to the restauraunt we were going to. It was very kind. We went to hibachi and sat with a couple who had 4 kids under 9 and under. They were nice to talk to and their kids were incredibly well behaved. D9 got them to sing happy birthday to me when I got up to use the restroom. I loved it.
A friend visited the next day and we wen to a beer fest then his nieces 21st bday party.
Yesterday I read on my couch almost all day, went to the mall, then out to dinner with friends. I also cried. A lot. I was hurting and lonely.
FF never sent a bday wish. I never really expected it. His sister actually sent me 2, one on FB and one through text. I won't lie, it hurt he hasn't acknowledged my existence in 3 weeks, let alone on my bday. I was thinking about how so many people reached out, and how I was upset about the one who didn't. Makes no sense, right? It's not a lack of appreciation for what I have in life, but I just became aware of my emotions.
I am still hobbling along. Some days I feel a little normal, others I feel godawful, It's a process. I have just about the busiest week and weekend coming up. It should be good for me.
Oh and school began again today after a 3 week break. I am in the home stretch.
