A WW? (8)

[lt0402]

Well, W has signed her lease. I'll do the same early next week. It appears she did it 2 weeks ago, after she'd told me she hadn't yet. Is what it is.

I know bc I saw the security deposit and rent checks clear and that was the dates on them. Sent w a text from the gym this morning asking when she planned to move out. She said sometime after the 17th. Unsure why she'd pay all of June's rent. Kind of irks me she's just waste that money.

As part of that text I told W we need to sit down on Saturday to talk about how we will tell D on Sunday. W just said "ok". I don't know how D will take it. W thinks she'll be so happy that we are splitting. I think otherwise. All I know is I'll drive the conversation and I'll be there for D to lean on if she needs to. I feel bad for the kid. I wish I could save her this hurt. But she'll need the next few weeks to understand and process this prior to us splitting. Bleh

At this point I'm very tired of Ws antics. To be honest, she's acting like a spoiled brat. It's very possible I enabled this. Live and learn I guess and be better next go around. I'm waiting for the clock to tick down and hoping that when it hits 0 the stress will be lifted. I feel like I've been through a pressure cooker this past year. I need some time away from all of his to rest and recharge everything about me. Feeling stronger now than I did a year ago. Feeling more confident and happy in myself. It feels like the time for this, even if my heart is screaming no.

W apparently has started to split up the small stuff already. Came home to a bunch of crap piled in my closet and no dialogue from my W. w asked me yesterday to take care of some things next week so she could go out of town to finalize her dad's estate. I gladly told her yes, knowing it was the right thing to do. Up until the split, I'll continue to be the H I want to be. After the split I guess we move more to acquaintances who both have a vested interest in D.

So that's where things stand. The house sale closes at the end of the month. W is already technically a renter. All that's left is to move our stuff and move forward with my life. I'm looking forward to what's ahead, but know there will be bumps in the road as we finish up this marathon.