First time here, part 3

[leahsue]

Thanks, Sara,
When I see your comments actually written out, it brings it all home to me.
OF COURSE, I don't want to be thinking about other men. But we are all human, and long for a connection, if nothing else, just to remember that just because our wayward spouse did not want us any more, does not mean that NO ONE DOES!
I'm afraid, both of loving again, and at the same time, of not loving again.
I'm not ready for that part of my life to be over.
But I know who I want it to happen with, and that may not be in the cards for me.
I think the healthiest thing for me to do right now, is sit back, watch how H handles the next few weeks, and react with my honest heart felt guide. No expectations, but no settling for less, either.
I have so many thoughts swirling through my head tonight.
I just need to chill out, watch some mindless TV, and let tomorrow be another day.