I fell off the dbing wagon today, the w emailed me to basically talk about bills but she also thanked me for the flowers I sent her over a week ago. We made a few exchanges and she said I hope you're doing ok, originally I kept my cool and say I'm doing fine and then I replied again with this Honestly I lied, I've been a wreck. Everyday I wake up (if I sleep at all) feeling like my heart has been torn from my chest. Everyday is worse than the day before. I wake up at times thinking you're laying beside me still. Seeing our belongings and memories getting boxed up day after day leaves an empty feeling in the pit of my soul. I am and I've always been crazy in love with you and I'll wait forever for you and I'm willing to do whatever it takes for you to trust me with your heart again. Sorry I tried but I can't hold back how I truly feel. You are my love and I want to show you how much you mean to me and how much I truly truly cherish you for the remainder of my days.
I was doing good too, I've been NC since sunday but in guess I'm back to square one
