Limerence and My Situation

[Parkema]

Hi Both,

I totally agree and am beginning to see some minute benefits.

1. I am more positive with what is happening, I have dark days of course where I feel I can't continue to do this but are getting more infrequent.

2. I am in control, not bothered about what the WW and AP/LO are up to.

3. I'm slowly getting through!

Last night (Thur 1st June) my WW came around to see the boys and again I made myself scares and got out of the way after all she's there to see them not me, I was on these forums and just gaining as much info as I could when she approached me. I stayed happy confident and consistent and basically talked about anything other than the A. I am using some tools to monitor our interactions whilst journaling and this is helping me to know what and what NOT to do.

We had a great night talking and it felt like old times, she then had a call on her mobile and I instantly knew it was the AP/LO she didn't answer it and instead put it away. We continued to talk again about the past and good holidays in Egypt and the relationships we made with people there. She also mentioned that she found photos of these holidays in the folders "next to her wedding dress" I obviously knew where and what these were from the description but made me think that she is seeing these days in a positive light instead of re-writing them as is the norm when WW enter into an A.

I am waiting for the push-back though as I know it will be coming but again am prepared for it.

Bringing this back to limerence I feel that after only 6-months this interaction showed a positive result in doing the above and again gives me a massive boost to continue, it might be saying to her well I'm getting the best of both worlds here BUT cannot ignore her when she interacts with me!

This is beginning to worry me as some might say that I am allowing her to continue her affair with little consequences BUT again I'm not pursuing she pursues me and I remain "dark" at all other times! I can't again stop her from seeing our boys also as this would not only hurt her but my boys and I will not do that.

This is a very difficult balancing act and one in which I appreciate the forums views on.

Thanks again

Mark