I am short on time, and I want to address everyone for their thoughtful input. but I want to clarify one thing.
I am happy with myself. There are things that are fulfilling in my life. My life actually is full. But there is a part of me that yes, actually needs a partner to complete the package for me. Else everyone on this earth would be single, I think. It's human nature. Not a part I really got to every experience correctly. I would probably change nothing that I have a chance to change (I would change my job and I would love some more money, but neither is happening anytime soon, I am fine with that). I have significant relationships with my friends. My daughter is awesome, we have a wonderful relationship. I have hobbies I enjoy. I try new things, go to new places. Life is full. I am actually happy with my life and myself (although I am way to hard on myself, I need to work on that some more). My soul is meant to be shared with partner though. I don't think that means I am not happy with myself or my life.
Just really wanted to clarify that. I've been ready to add for a LONG time on to that. I want that experience to love and to be loved, to share on an intimate level with a romantic partner. I really never had it. But only with the right person under the right circumstances will it ever be what I really need. The person themselves will not make me whole or happy. That is not their responsibility. I can do that myself. I have done that myself. But I don't see a healthy intimate relationship as simply a cherry on top. I see it as a part of life, SOMEWHERE along the line for me. I will just hope it will happen when the time is right.
