Another day, another mystery.

My W has been calling me more frequently to tell me about her day, asks for advice, we've talking about her toxic relationship to her mother and how she wants to break free from her. I have a feeling that we (myself and my mother-in-law) are being lumped together because we are both biploar. My wife grew up with a lot of crap and her mom is never really been there for her. Sometimes I believe she thinks I'll do the same to her in the future.

I'm thinking of writing a letter to get all my thoughts out about our relationship. I believe this has opened my eyes to where I was lacking in our relationship and has shown me how important my family is. I believe if we both work on the relationship, it will be stronger than it ever was. I think she feels the same way but her fear of being hurt or abandoned outweighs her willingness to reconnect.

We have a mediation date for June 14. I'm confused because she continues to want to plan activities for us and our family after that date (including a mini-vacation w just me and her
). When I have written letters to her in the past and was able to get my thoughts out, they were well received. I know letter writing is frowned on, but I feel that date approaching like a freight train. I'll continue to post and thanks for reading