There is some truth in what you say KML. The issues are coming out with the more abandonment I face. My IC and I do work on this one. Yes, I do fear I am not enough. I've been working on that too. I think I am enough for me. That part I have succeeded on. I could sit here and tell you I am quite a catch and although I am not perfect, and I make lots of mistakes, I am enough. I need to work on realizing when people chose to leave me, and leave me and move on right away, it wasn't because I am not enough. I just wasn't "right" for them. And yes, I should view his seeking this person out as his not thinking enough of himself and acting desperately.
We had something good which didn't get to play out for a few reasons. So yeah, infatuation, never got the chance to make it to love. Wish I could tell him "I was wrong when I said I love you" Of course I will not.
And no, I won't reach out to his sister personally. I do care what's going on in her life, we were friendly, but I am better off not doing it.
I am grieving what he was in my life, definitely. I liked where we were and the fun we were having. I am grieving it ended because of the future.
I am really just going to get over it and move on. Hopefully a nice healthy relationship is in store for me somewhere down the line.
I am afraid I don't even know what that looks like, though.
