Nice to hear from you. I hope you and your probably not so little ones are doing well. The baby is perfect. The boys and I love him so much and he is such a perfect addition for us.
I think I'm bowing out ... checked the phone bill after yesterday and found H has been calling an apartment complex and his bank.
School started back for me today. I'm emotional enough leaving my 5 week old. I don't need this. I am wasting my time pining for his affection when he doesn't have it to give to me. If you can't love me when I'm pregnant and after I have delivered our baby then it's futile. He's made no effort in the almost week since we went to the C. He didn't do anything he said he would and here's I am pulling all the weight while managing the boys and a baby and school.
The one thing I asked for him today was to take our oldest to soccer. He said he would. Do you think he came home in time to take him? No ... he's checked out and it's time to let him go. I'm sad and heartbroken and do t want to picture my life without him but I'm wasting my time thinking he's going to come around.
Thanks everyone for your patience with me. I am so grateful.
