As for pulling away or towards your wife, well, your natural inclination is going to be towards familiarity. And thats ok, but this appears an opportunity (note that i stated opportunity) to get out of your comfort zone. Most people will disagree with me here, but do something that you've always wanted to do, but always put off. The one thing that brings out the inner child in you. This is the real you. Hopefully you can share it with her and she can see you for who you truly are. Be you.
Thanks. I appreciate it. I'll definitely think on that.
We spent the weekend together working on the house. My mom took the kids for a few days. We got along great. Laughing. Intimate. It almost felt like we were back together. I avoided bringing up the relationship. She brought it up numerous times. Mostly about asking "Why did you screw up?" or "I want to hug and kiss you and take you back but I don't want to be hurt again."
I'll continue to work on myself and try to keep my modified distance. I am making my way through Divorce Remedy. I feel time with a consistent effort to grow and become a better person will be the best way to heal our relationship (married or not). I'm going to accept I will be confused for a good bit and acknowledge it for what it is. Thanks again
