Thanks for the insight. I get what you all are saying and I feel myself getting antsy. I feel myself wanting to seek reassurance from him. He told the C when we went last week that a few days after C I have to ask him questions and want answers on his commitment. I haven't done that but I'm sure he's waiting for it.
After I had the baby he was doing things and stopped. I would like to get back to that point. Things weren't great by any means but he was much closer to me and more engaged.
I'm fine with giving more but am I not supposed to be pursuing? I don't want to pursue if I'm not supposed to but part of me thinks that's what he needs from me?
For example, yesterday I made him lunch and bought his favorite drink put it in a cup with ice and set it up outside for him while he worked on the boat.
Last night I didn't ask when he was coming in even though it was late I just let him know I had made him dinner and that it was inside. Today I didn't do any of those things but I figured since he has been the one kissing me fist I just went up and gave him a kiss and told him I loved him. He said ILY too and gave me a hug.
