Sorry about your friend, but glad you are finally having some time for yourself. Keep planning your own activities and visiting friends, you need that positive network. I noticed that the more I reconnected with friends, the happier I became.
I am so proud of you, Sarah, you changed so much since I read your posts last year. You have mastered the art of Detachment. That's road was not easy, to be frank, I don't think that is easy for anybody, we learned through our trials and mistakes, they made us stronger and wiser.
THIS is where I thought I was, but I wasn't. I'm going to try to go there now. One day you feel OK, and the world is your oyster. The next day, or hour, or minute, your emotions drive you backwards. It's all a journey.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton