Leah, I agree with Thornton. I think it would be disastrous if you did that. I can see that you have a hard time with patience. I did for a long time too, not sure where I suddenly found it. I think it was when I decided that I was ok with divorce. I can't stop him, but I'm not doing it for him.
I think your H is still way too much the focus of your life and that you view him as a necessity for your own happiness. Do not give anyone that power over you. You are such an amazing and plucky woman. Get out there and live that life and be that independent dynamo that squeezes joy out of every moment.
Vent to us (and share your cockamamie schemes) but with him, be confident, busy and steady. You guys keep dancing so close to one another that you will collide at some point here. Just be patient.
