A WW? (8)

[lt0402]

Thanks Tread. Yeah, at the start of mine, when I showed my W I would not roll over and let her have her way in this, she had all sorts of lies about me and our situation she used to toss at me. I believe she is using my D as the reason to justify her leaving. Without my D "telling her that w and I should S" my W would be willing to stay another 10yrs. She says that she's doing this all for D. I can't think of a more horrible or selfish thing for her to say.

But, I feel like I know she wants to go. While the reason is not really for my D, she still wants to go. Whether she is able to justify it to herself or not doesn't matter to me. What I'm realizing is that I just really don't want to be with her if she doesn't want to be here. [censored] for my family. [censored] for my D. But it is what it is. I made my case to her with my actions this past year. Can't do anything now to change her mind before we split. Lost cause.

That's why I'm done. I'm done bc she has shown she doesn't want this. She has shown it's ok to lie to me. She has shown that she doesn't respect me and is willing to hurt me in every way she possibly can. But she has given me a gift. This situation has forced me to become myself again. It's forced me to fix some issues I had with D. It's forced me to be better and be awesome. It won't help with my w but it's led to an amazing R with my D, and I've no doubt some other woman will be quite happy to have me in the future. Ws loss, but my gain!

So it's hard to be mad at her. Hurt yes, mad no. That's why I'm not freaking out on the inside. And that's why I'm done at the split.