25yearsmlc 10 Yrs Later I File D part 3

[25yearsmlc]

Simple... he wants a new life with a new woman. Of course you and your children will be neglected and put aside. If he wanted the life he had with all of you, he would have stayed. MLCer do not want responsabilities. It pisses them off to be responsable snd accountable for others. They are after the fairytale. Stay in reality 25, stay real.

I hear you. He absolutely sees himself as a victim. Given my hospitalization and what he was doing then, he - either forgets that, (??) or somehow dismisses it (Not serious??)

and I simply will never be able to understand how someone could do that. To anyone, let alone the mother of their children. It can only mean he's not a good man. Ouch.

So I guess my questions are half rhetorical and half reality based.

The rhetorical ones are "HOW THE HE!! DO YOU DO THIS & NOT FEEL LIKE CRAP??"

and the answer is unknowable, or "easy, I don't look/I justified it all", which is too hard to wrap my brain around.

So far...


Another useless Rhetorical question - is wondering IF/WHEN he will see the wreckage he created...and the answer to that is "who knows? Maybe never"

Another answer I think is likely, is "even if h someday sees

wreckage he created - he won't tell you ---that he REGRETS it, but rather that he feels he lost something & it hurts HIM...= self pity, not an awakening".

So the reality based questions are all about HOW I HELP, myself, my kids, especially d19. Looking into L's for d19 up north, and job hunting for me...but mainly I help myself and my kids

by doing as my L says, and GAL.

The happier and more at peace my kids see me as being, is truly what is best for THEM, too.

I really hope for my sake AND THEIRS that I prevail in court in July. I'll ask for prayers then and meanwhile.

Sometimes writing these ^^ things out really does keep it simple.

It's very damn hard. But sometimes it's just not that complicated.