Hope you are doing well. I think the shift in your demeanor is the beginning of a shift. Of course only time will tell what direction this will go.
I have found when I was away from the boards, is when the biggest changes would occur in my own sitch. Probably because I wasn't solely focused on my M/R and I was living life.
Hopefully you update us from time to time. I'm interested to follow your sitch to see how things shake out. I also can respect your space, so no pressure.
Take care
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa