Coly, how many people realistically need to know how many times you have been married? Probably just someone you were very serious about in the future. You can't control what others think. You know that you have given this the best you have. If it leads to divorce, that is ok because you only control your part of it. Remember, the statists put it at over half of people anyway. All that matters is what you think and believe about yourself. You are clearly a smart and kind person and if the rest of your life isn't going to be with this guy, there will doubtless be somebody else for you.
This fear of divorce could be what is holding you back. I had my head wrapped around that number. 25 years. I must stop this so it doesn't end there. Now I really don't care. I have done what I can do. I can hold my head high to myself and my children.
I've read so many stories here about people who come back after divorce. Don't let divorce be the thing that stops you from moving forward. It is just a piece of paper and a tax status. The emotional part is clearly not over for you guys. Just live your life in peace and joy.
