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[coffee_]

Another check in.
Yesterday would have marked 22 years if I was still married.

I decided to take the day for myself and play hookie. I was lazy in the morning, sat around and drank some coffee and watched the news a bit. I bought myself some new socks and shorts. Then I headed down the road and found as many dirt roads that I could and enjoyed the beautiful spring day in Montana, awesome views of green valleys and white mountain peaks. Stopping to watch birds and take some cool pictures. I stopped for lunch with my lady friend, it was nice to see her. I returned home and cooked a couple of awesome rib eye steaks and had my good friend over for a couple beers and a darn good steak dinner.

I spent time grieving the loss of what I thought my marriage was. Remembering the good times with here (there where plenty of those). And spent a fair amount of time enjoying me for who I am. It was a day of reflection and planning for my future.

I had not heard from my ex in days, she usually doesn't contact me when she has the S14 in her care, when I have him I hear from her all the time. Anyways yesterday she sent several texts, none of which required immediate reply so I didn't. Her last text of the day was, I guess I was just wanting to talk to you today, I hope your well. My first thought was "now you want to talk"?

I chalked it up as a victory, I didn't take the bait and I spent the entire day just loving myself. It was quite liberating to know that I can do that.