I will continue to take my medications as prescribed. I have felt the negative consequences of thinking they did not help until I was knee deep in a manic episode. I also see a therapist weekly now. Something I have avoided for a long time. I have seen therapists before and never connected until my most recent one.
Still receiving mixed messages. My wife has called me a few times at work today. Once to see if i wanted to go to a function with her mid June. Another to see if I can leave work early tomorrow to hang out with her. The other time to see if I would reschedule my blood donation time so she can go with me. All this less than 24 hours after pretty much saying she does not want a further relationship. I told her I was not sure on all counts. I'm guessing she is feeling some major guilt or wants the best of both worlds. I think it may be time to detach and i have read some things on the last resort but I don't know if that applies. I should have some free time tonight to read and see whats what.
