First time here, part 3

[leahsue]

Thanks Sara.
I'm going to do some fun things this weekend, but I have to admit my heart is a little heavy today. Even as I say that though, I realize that part of me is a little relieved to not be constantly watching my phone, focusing on him. I know I'm nowhere the detachment I need to be, but I'm a heck of a lot closer than I was 24 hours ago. At least I'm back to the stage of NC- which I've said before, is so much easier for me to maintain than that hot and cold, push and pull, which were all on his terms anyway. I feel a lot more free today. And so far, not really all that sad. Nights are hardest.