Thanks DDJ. I was able to love in all those ways, but fear was attached. A fear I had actually expressed to him a few days before we broke up. I didn't say love, but I did mention fearing feeling the way I do for fear it is not being returned. I don't stop feeling the way I do, but I am fearful of it. But I did love with all of me. Without it being returned. It's a very hard thing to do. There was no condition attached either.
You're welcome Ginger. It is about the fear. We all fear rejection. We fear failure. We fear fear itself. I don't think that there is anyway to overcome this fear, as it something so innate that I think it's part of our genetic make-up. We can attempt to disregard the fear, which can sort-of help. We can learn to detach, which feels uncomfortable most times.
Unconditional love is the hardest love to have. It is real sacrifice. Sometimes it feels like crucification. You're just hanging there, waiting to just die - LOL.
That's really what it feels like. That's something that i feel DBing misses, it removes feeling of love from the relationship. It speaks only of actions. When it was the feeling that got us there, and the lack feeling that got us here.
If you can hold your head up high and say, i am a better person because I can love with all of me, mind, body and soul, only then will you find someone just like you. Only then will you find someone whole.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
