From your writings I sense you have come a long way, but still have ways to go. And that is a good thing.
Things will continue to get better and your life will flourish. You will be able to see the signs of torment on the face of your W and she will have a lot of battles with her demons. Luckily that is no more your concern. I know you still have some residual WTF happened feelings, but this will subside.
I know you are probably fighting with some issues of self worth, but this too shall pass.
Now it is time for you to enjoy life, to tell yourself each and every morning when you wake up that it is going to be a beautiful day and then go out of your way to make your life beautiful each and every day.
Now you have the time and space to reinvent yourself. You can take up painting or you can restore that 67 mustang you have laying in your garage. Why not take that trip to Ireland you have been wanting to take your whole life? Why not go alone? Traveling alone is great, because you don't have to compromise for anyone. And you can meet loads of interesting people.
