So good day today! I kept things even and any contact I did have with H I kept it light and good. He started to get grumpy due to being overwhelmed at work and normally I would get all into his face and tell him to stop being so miserable Today I just detached and kept on my own path. And you know what? It felt good. I did not bring up the relationship. I did not being up the splitting of assets. That was my newest thing. Bring up all the dirty deeds of divorce. Child support, assets etc in the hopes of waking him up and him magically coming to me and saying what a fool he was. And how he wanted back. Nope. I was so proud of myself. Then my DD let it out that when she and her brother were with H this weekend he went to a sports bar with friends. My first reaction was anger. He was out living his life and probably picking up chicks ( I know this isn't the case for sure. He was out with mutual friends and he wouldn't make himself look like an idiot like that). But my knee jerk reaction is to assume the worst and then start berating via text and arguiing. After my DD told me this I took a deep breath and started folding laundry. Anything to keep me away from my phone so I wouldn't start texting. And it worked. I knew that he was probably watching the Jays game and not woman searching. And I reminded myself even if he was its none of my business. I need to let him walk his own path. It was such a realization tonight for me to not immediately act. So instead of leaving him with a sour taste in his mouth from me by arguiing. He is now left with happy thoughts because I was amicable and detached today.
