Marriage counseling tonight. She confirms that she wants either a divorce or separation agreement because of not wanting to be on the line financially if I have another manic episode. Also said that she cannot trust me now to restart any relationship. I reiterated that I do not want a divorce. I want to rebuild our relationship. Marriage counselor really did not help and we all agreed to stop going.
On the car ride home she asked me to give her one good reason she should stay with me and risk getting hurt again. I explained that I believed our marriage and love has the ability to be stronger than ever if we are both willing to put in the hard work. She seemed to agree but thinks I should to be the one that does most of the work.
When we got back to the house, she asked if I wanted to sleep (no sex) with her tonight. I told her I needed to do some thinking and declined. I was hoping tonight would be a turning point towards reconciliation. Now I feel I'm about to begin a long journey. Thanks for listening
