It's funny because when she was crying, I was thinking to myself what her real intentions were. In the past, I would have automatically assumed it was because she loved me.
But as real as her tears were, I was still hesitant in believing everything at face value. I still am.
I really don't know what her intentions are. She keeps talking about a future together and I am remaining completely neutral when she asks me about it. I just tell her I can only focus on today.
I can't distinguish if she is having real regret, or if she is simply setting me up to be a backup plan.
My self esteem has taken a beating in the last few months so I'm having a hard time trusting my feelings/instincts about things.
The good news is that I'm aware of my pattern now ^^^. I dont know how to remedy it, but I know my thoughts/actions are being driven by my emotions. I need to step back and think about this objectively.
