"Please don't let me wear mini skirts, crop tops, a sideways ponytail and spikey heels to work all in an attempt to be 18 again."

Oh my gosh - you don't think that works in your 40s?? Maybe I need to review my look!!

Sorry you had a rough weekend. It does sound as though you may be reaching your limit of limbering along in a kind of limbo. What you do about that is of course up to you and I wish you well whatever you decide.

My only comment would be - if you ask your H how things might improve, my guess is he may have projected a lot onto you - ie: my life would be so much better if she wouldn't do X, or if only they weren't so Y....

But if you choose to do that, I would say do it with compassion and be prepared to hear something you may find difficult (ie: projection etc.) But if it will help you feel better and moving forward knowing you have done it, then I don't see why not?

Xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus