truth most certainly does not always translate into facts.
Georgia- When people say those things they are always good intentioned. but when we have lived the fact that the way things should go aren't the way they go, we know better than to count on it. Which is maybe why I can't sit here and say "one day I 'll meet the one". I very well may not! I may just as well be single for the rest of my life. I have no clue.
Right now I am taking everything for face value. I have this thing about human connections. They are sacred to me. I like to honor them. I was in the process of tucking FF away into a nice little box treasuring our time together and the way he felt about me..... but then my gut kicked in. Fb is evil. When he liked me and wanted to ask me out, he liked all my posts. I see him doing somewhat that to a mutual friend now on FB. A hater of our R because she was jealous who was rude to us the last time we saw her. Whom he had not so nice things to say about. I think he going for the kill. Could be paranoia. could be the truth. I lose my crap for real when this repeatedly happens, so I am prepping myself for the worst. I unfolowed her on Fb so I don't have to see his likes. But I will surely find out due to the mutual friends.
I'm trying to see it as desperation on finding the baby momma. But if it does happen, I will see it as a true disrespect to me and what we had. I will lose it momentarily, but I will try to keep it together.
I truly hope that I'm just being crazy and paranoid. But every time I hope that, it turns out I am not.
I also found out that I have to find somewhere to volunteer related to my course study for 10 hours over the course of 3 particular weeks and I need to start in a week. This is just about impossible for me. To find a place that fast and find the time and someone to watch D9.
Today was a one step forward 2 steps back kind of day.
