W went to my lawyer's office on Friday and signed the
Dating... wow. the date I went on was the best one I'd been on in my entire life. Chemistry. The kind of thing that only happens in movies. We practically kissed at dinner. We DID miss the entire movie because we were busy kissing. Four dates in two weeks. Each one better than the last. Incredible!
That ended last night. W's spewing got to me. I ended up spewing back. GF never wanted to be in the middle of a marriage. She bowed out. I could have made her stay, but then she wouldn't be her, and something beautiful would be gone from the world forever. I don't understand the relationship I had with her. But it was amazing. If we'd met a few months from now, at the right time, I can't even imagine how good my life would have ended up being.
Talked to W last night. I made her promise to get help. We'll see what happens. I still don't want her. If I went back, it would be to make HER happy and not ME happy. Maybe someday. I don't know.
Ahhhhh, one thing you cannot make anyone do anything. You couldn't have "made" GF stay. It would have to be her choice. Sure, you made wife promise to get help, but you can't make her actually get help.
You can't make anyone do anything. Nor should you ever want to. You want others choices to be their's and pure. Always.
