God does for us what we cannot do for ourselves

[Pax_luv]

Juju,
I'm so sorry you are having these feelings. Fortunately, you are not alone with us here. Continue to vent and process.

I'm in the same boat- 2 years and not one tiny ounce of hesitation or remorse. Not one tiny minuscule. Zero temp checks. Nada.

It boggles my mind, too and I often think... Was any of it real? Did I mean that little to him? Three months after our separation, I was in his presence when I got word of a family member passing. I collapsed to the floor sobbing and it was as if I was by myself. No condolences, no hand on the shoulder. He didn't even offer me a chair. Stone cold. Regardless of any lack of compassion towards me, It was his relative, too and he showed nothing! I'm just thinking about it and I'm crying.

My ex had some serious vices with money as well. And it didnt come out until the disclosure phase of the divorce. I Don't know about you, but I am disgusted by my ex and his dishonesty. I know I'm better off, but it doesn't make it easier.

Hugs to you. You'll get through it. It's rough, but you'll rise again. I know it.