Well I got over the hurdle of going on a date but I'm all over the place emotionally. Lots of chatting before probably wasn't the best idea (phone and text, mildly flirtatious). I was really enjoying it, but it created some expectation I think. I was unrealistically positive beforehand, so felt excessively letdown afterward bc I didn't feel an attraction I was hoping to feel. May be hard to extricate or be honest about what I'm feeling. (What I'm feeling changes back and forth too.)Maybe I need to let the pendulum swinging stop to see how I really feel and where to go from here. I just think right now that I'd be really happy to be friends, and that he is hoping for a lot more than that. I could be misinterpreting, but I don't think I am.
Notwithstanding, I had a very nice time. He was amazingly attentive and interested, and I enjoyed that a lot.
Now I feel more apprehensive than excited though when I get texts from him. And I'm trying not to reciprocate quite as much.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
