First time here part 2

[leahsue]

So far, trip is still on for this Thursday. He's been a little distant when he contacts me. This may be his own anxiety about making this visit. Not my circus.
I'm not doing much to prepare, because the last time I heard from him, he threw out the possibility that something could come up at work that would cause him to change the dates of the visit. If this was preparation for me, then so be it. I did say well please keep me posted because I don't want to be left with no plans for Memorial Day weekend if you back out.
Honestly, I think I'm kind of hoping he postpones it.
I feel some anger in me about his laid back attitude about coming. I don't know how to even greet him physically, whether to hug him, or wait for him to take the lead. Not to mention we will be here in the house alone together for 8 days. I have some things planned, fun things to keep us from veering into R talk, but I am not excited about the visit like I was a month ago. I don't know if it's nerves or just reality, that after the visit, I still won't know where we are.
I'll keep you posted. I don't want to fall too far down the posting list, because if the trip does happen this week, I'm going to be coming here often I'm sure, just to breathe, vent, and be with my friends.