its been a few weeks since i posted - my walkaway wife is away for the weekend, as per usual, and its given me some tim to reflect since my last post.

i fully accept i am a changed man and the changes have stuck, yet I've been stuck as things don't seem to reach a next level and i wonder whether they will. i know enough to know that stages of doubt do occur

I'm increasingly accepting of the fact that things may not resolve and that i may move on alone, yet know i absolutely have to feel I've done all i can to try and see if things can resolve despite knowing the rough road ahead. withdrawing does not seem to give me that resolve

i feel i should be saying things such as; i want new relationship, i'm committed to do all i can to make it work, i'm a new man; yet it also feels counter productive and against all the DB'ing I've instilled in myself

any insight?

BD Oct 2016
Me 47, W 43
together 25 years
S 25, D 22