Just checking in... Most days are good for me. However I have recently began loosing confidence and feeling some low self worth. I know the XW's A is not my fault but I cant help but think what I could have done differently. I feel like I am just treading water right now instead of moving forward. Today I miss the life I once had as a married guy, I didn't ask for any of this and now here I am. I am making the best of it and trying to be the best dad I can be, but my resources are limited now compared to when I had a home, shop, toys, and the ability to do some outdoor adventures with my S. I do enjoy my time with him.
I still have high anxiety when I have to attend a soccer game or a band concert, knowing that his mother will be there. I keep waiting for her to show up with the OM, trying to work out my reaction in my head. I don't want to act like a coward, yet I don't want to punch him in the face either. I guess I just have to hold my head high and be as polite as I can.
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M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder
