I'm climbing out of my slump. I just wrote an email to attorney regarding necessary changes to opposing counsels proposed decree. I am asking what else has not been disclosed. I am trying to separate this portion as pure business. Someone told me that 95% of time judges will go by law, and that is all I want. At this point it is too expensive to switch attorneys so I just need to be part of this more.
I am making appointments with my hypnotherapist who I really trust and relate to and i have an appointment with a counselor/social worker next week who has experience with addiction.
I am and have been obsessed with ex's addiction, googling Whether addicts can be remorseful, reading forums for drug users, trying to see if ex is a narcissist or addict.
But I have just as dangerous of an addiction, and that's the way I am not moving on with my own life. I need to start a second job, I need to stop procrastinating, I need to get better organized, I need to get my power back.
My hypnotherapist told me that while yes I have been victimized that she does not want for me to become a victim. That I need to move forward and regain my power. And I realize how with my situation, I do come across as not the strongest woman.
I went to one alanon meeting and met a woman that just came across as sone one severely abused by her husband. She had taken him back and you could just read her body and language as someone without power and control. I never want to be how she is.
