I want to commend you on the title of this thread. I, too, sing along to this song and very frequently refer to my au natural hair as my David Coverdale hair.
You've received great feedback from many. I'll sing a little bit of a different song and dance Tawny Kitean style on da car. I kid. I'm not a fan of the term "dodged a bullet" even though I use it. I think I don't like the term because to me it implies that the whole thing with a mistake. Or that nothing good could come of it if it continued on. I think you finally met someone that you really clicked with, hung out with, and just enjoyed being with several days a week. And it wasn't long distance! You got a taste of what it would be like to be in a semi regular (whatever that is) relationship with a fairly regular guy. You haven't had that in a while so hails to the yes you enjoyed it. And that's a good thing!!!
I understand the rejection thing. I see it very common amongst women in their mid-30s and up. The most innocuous thing can feel like rejection to someone who has been rattled at their core when it comes to relationships. And everyone here has. However, I think for some the feeling of rejection starts to build and add up versus subside. And it's extremely difficult to switch that gear.
While I cannot personally relate to jumping all in (that's just not me), you clearly see the good in people which is a necessity to survive. I understand your experiences have been frustrating, but you still proceed wholly. That's rare and shows your ability to be able to love or care deeply for someone again. Is is a bad feeling now? Yes, you are sad. Is it bad that you cared? Absolutely not! It's great that you have that ability.
You told him how you feel. I think that's awesome. Granted, you may not have gotten the response or reaction you wanted but you stated your feelings. You didn't look desperate or pathetic. You looked like a person who was hurt and cared. Is that bad? Nope.
Hang in there:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer