I will drop some of my thoughts when I read this. Firstly wow it must be hard to continually be drawn back to the start of her cycling. Anyway here are my thoughts: 1. You need to reconnect with them. Only you can figure out how to do that. They have been hurt and are not in a position to be receptive to reconnecting right now. Those barriers took time to be put in place and will require time and effort on your part to enable the girls lower them.enough to consider. reflect upon what you are willing and able to do. If it is not a lot it will not work. 2. You choose to move away just as you choose to leave. The girls had no part in either decision. Maybe you chose believing iat was best for them, but it remains a decision taken alone. 3. All children do stuff that infuriates a parent. That is an incident and does not define the relationship. It is a series of behaviors and decisionsthat determine a R. Blaming the girls will not help anything and will definitely not help reconnect.
4. oYou have missed many important moments where a mothers presence would have benefited them. I am sure you have good things to add to their lives. Two years is a long time. That gap cannot be closed quickly.
5 change is the only constant there truly is. Change is possible. A defeatist attitude will only hinder that happening.You need to be willing to try even though seems improbable.
6 I forgive you
I don't have time to elaborate more, but in my replies the emphasis was on pushing it back to her.
I still see positives and liked she asked if you forgave her. But she needs to walk the walk instead of talking the talk. I am not sure she realises that yet
Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
