I know I do need to pull back with the contact. I was doing so well and then I contacted him (ugh!). I just miss him so much. Not beng able to express your feelings to the person you love is so hard!
I know what you mean about how you spin before you see H and then it is okay. I get terribly nervous and then afterwards I get a real adrenaline crash like I am having today. Lots of memories of the things he said to me last year come bubbling to the surface. This then causes the doubts to creep in, anger, resentment, hurt, I feel like I'm going to cry at the drop of a hat!
Still on that roller coaster!
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Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
