She come over last night, collected her stuff, and I helped her load it up. We then all went to dinner for mother's day, which was awkward and painful (she texted me at dinner that she was having a hard time fighting back tears).
After dinner, I told her happy mother's day, and left. This morning she came home before our son woke up and crawled into bed with me. I've been avoiding her since.
How the woman I love more than anything in the entire world, and that I thought loved me, turned into someone who will do anything to get away from me because I'm apparently just that terrible is just soul crushing. I'm staying strong, not showing her any emotions (She said that I always react with emotions and so that's one of her core belief's about me that I'm trying to shatter) and not begging. But I just want to kiss her and for things to go how they were last year.
