Working on a Trial Separation Agreement with MLC H

[ccgrrl]

I disappeared for a while because I felt like I really had things together in my head. I was moving forward with my life and things in the house with my kids were actually better than they had been when he lived with us, but here I am 3 months later and I feel like I'm back to square one.

Today is Mother's Day. Did he acknowledge me as the mother of his children at all? Nope.

In fact, 4 days ago he told me he is seeing a woman and that he would be going public with her. She has several acquaintances in common with me and I live in a small town, so it feels absolutely humiliating. I was not surprised, as I knew he would eventually be seeing someone. I guess I just never thought about it being a public humiliation like this. We are not divorced. We've only lived separately for 3 months.

To top it all off, he told me and then asked if it was okay to introduce the kids to her!!!!!! Is that crazy or what?

Anyway, after months of being okay, I can no barely function. I went to work the other day and completely lost it, sobbing for 15 minutes uncontrollably in front of someone I supervise. Today I lost it with the kids and told them how awful my Mother's Day was because they were just acting like kids do - sort of self-centered and unaware.

I keep thinking about this woman and ways I could humiliate her. I know that is wrong and not who I am, but I am really struggling here. It seems to be so strong, so suddenly.... I don't know what I will do if I see them in public and if he attempts to introduce her to my kids, I am really going to flip out.

Any advice for how to deal with the feelings this is stirring up and how to avoid doing something I will regret later with regards to the OW?