Leaving it up to God (but still interfering!)

[Coly23]

Het Sotto, great to hear from you.

You are right off course about my expectations. When I got back home I had to stop the urge to ask him if he wanted to do something this week and instead I just thanked him for a nice lunch. It was extremely hard though. I ended up painting my hall way to keep temptation at bay!

I think that's a really good idea to back off for a couple of weeks initially. At least doing it this way it doesn't mean I am going NC for an indefinite period which is always hard. I am so hoping that he will reflect on our lunch today in a positive way. We did have a couple laughs especially when I retold the story of D and some shoes she needed to take back to the shop. Although she hadn't worn them anywhere other than in front of the mirror in her bedroom when it came time to put them back in the carrier bag she could only find one shoe! We hunted high and low to no avail! We were in stitches!

So, I don't see many sitches where the WAS and LBS are on friendly terms so I don't know what the success rate would be for reconciliation but I am hoping that friendship is the first stage. But like I said before, this could be something and nothing but I am afraid that we will get stuck in this stage because this is all he wants.

I need to stop thinking of what might be and just live in the now, I need to keep reminding myself if that ...