Leaving it up to God (but still interfering!)

[Coly23]

Journaling - so had lunch with H today. It was really nice.

There were a few awkward silences but I remembered my 180 and didn't try and fill it with useless waffle! Also I tried not to take over the conversation and just let him and D talk but he did ask me lots of questions too. Also, I managed to not try to arrange another time to see him but I did get a kiss and a hug again both at the beginning and the end. I noticed he still always kisses me on the lips but everyone else, including D, on the cheek.

I texted him afterwards and thanked him for lunch as he paid and expected the usual, not giving you any hope type of response of 'Yep, it was nice'. Instead I got a 'Your welcome' and a smilie blushy face which is very different for him! I think he is starting to relax but I'm not sure how to be with him now. It seems to be so much easier with the spew and anger. At least I know where I am with that. Now it just seems as if we are friends and I'm feeling a little lost. I'm trying to convince myself that this is how you move forward with potentially a new relationship, building on the friendship. I'm scared of this new stage but I'm not entirely sure if it is the start of something or nothing.

I think the only way I will know is if he starts to contact me. I really need to back of and let him come to me but it us soooo hard! I hope I left him with some good feelings today.

Happy Sunday everyone!!!