First time here part 2

[leahsue]

Hey girlfriend,
Actually, I just read your latest thread and responded before I saw this. So funny, how sometimes we all have such similar thoughts. The biggest difference in our sitch is I have not seen my H face to face since Jan. 1, while yours has been "in your face" this whole time. I don't know what is harder, but they are both hard enough to last a lifetime.
I have been GAL the last few days. Before that, I was feeling very isolated and sad- my own fault. My mom came for the weekend, and I took her to a neighborhood party tonight, which was so very validating for me. Saw some old friends, met some new ones.... I'm still exercising, still hating it, but whatever~ I am doing OK. I did text H this morning and said I need money, but so far, no response. Tomorrow should be good- my mom will still be here and my son and his partner are driving down for lunch. Tomorrow, I will go to church, eat too much, enjoy my mama, and my sons, (missing my D but will see her next week), but there will be an empty place inside me that H usually would fill, making sure I had a good M's Day. But that's OK too. I'm striving to get to where you are- to truly not care how this turns out. It's a marathon.