Today was hard; graduation. Emotional roller coaster from the speeches and general realization that she wasn't there. Friends, family and her family supported me with texts and calls. Received a text from her halfway through the ceremony "Congratulations on your graduation. I hope you have a wonderful day."
All I could do was be angry, which made me sad. I wanted her there, we both sacrificed for me to get this degree. I initially wasn't going to walk, I didn't for my high school graduation. Figured it would be a good test of my anxiety coping and a good 180 to show off a bit. Felt good to shake the hands of the professors.
I find myself hoping she feels bad, feels guilty for not being able or willing to take time off working 80+ hours a week to come to something that means this much to me. I went to both of hers, undergrad and masters. She couldn't do one... Anger is so easy. It pours out. The sadness that follows just drips.
Starting basket weaving tonight. I've had the stuff to do it forever and just haven't. Too much rain to practice archery.
Together 7 years Married 3 Said she was taking long way home late January Left to get some space 2/19/17 BD 3/1/17 ILYB
