"I don't feel like I want to".

That's your answer. Listen to, and trust, yourself. Hard to do after we've been shattered, but so important to the Reboot we all have to go through.

Me: 46
W: 44
Married: 17
Together 21
D13; S10
BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you)
Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage
Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)