I'd have given anything for this Just a month ago.
I get why you say you wouldnt want this. Im telling you that right now, you are still in such early days. Juts because you doint ant it today doesnt mean you wont want her back in a month or 6 months or whatever. I believe you are still in kind of a 'shock' phase where there are still tons of emotions rattling around.
My advice is to just take your time. Rushing into an unhealthy attachment to another woman isnt a solution. Rushing back into the arms of W isnt really either.
My advice is to pull back from OW and to stop having these drawn out conversations with W. Date yourself for a little bit. Explore who you are and whats important to you.
Then you can decide more about W. When youre in a good place.
