180man Thread 4

[180Man]

OwnIt, thank you for the kind words. I felt like I had been doing okay...but today it feels like I just don't have it in me to survive this. I was making some good progress on a project at work before this email came in...I tried to keep working on it and I ended up leaving early.

Thornton...next time tell that story first. That one helped. Not that the other one didn't, it did, but I think I was too distraught a couple hours ago to process it well. I'm still upset, I still don't know what to do. I'm the only one that can help me be happy...and that's depressing as hell. Why is it that the woman I love and cherish has just given up? My friend tells me I'm an idiot if I think the A is over. I honestly don't know either way. She's an idiot if it's still going on! But if it is going on it, oddly, makes me feel better about the email she sent me. She's clearly not making good decisions because she's "in love." And if it's not going on...then...she must really hate me...or feel we could never fix things...or feel she could never face me every day without feeling guilty...or doesn't want to do the work...or a thousand other reasons that make me feel terrible.